Monday, May 27, 2013

Happy Memorial Day

Hey everyone and Happy Memorial Day!! Any special plans today?? There is a block party on my street today and my kids DO NOT do the loud music so I might take them over to Chuck E Cheese to have a day of fun! I'm still undecided, it kinda looks like they've made up their minds to veg on the couch all day in front of the boob tube playing Wii all day LOL

How is everyone doing on their healthy living journey?? I lost .6 this week which brings my total lost to 33.8! I can live with it because I had a good beginning of the week but then Friday came and it went down hill!! LOL So I'm taking it and RUNNING OFF!!

My goal is to have another 16.2 off by August 12th which is when we leave for Wildwood NJ on our week vacation! I'd like to be down 50 by that time! I think it's still possible....we shall see

Tomorrow the kiddos go back to school and I'm going to CLEAN, CLEAN, CLEAN and get a good workout in!! I'm in love with the Leslie Sansone Walk At Home DVDs AND I started doing the Shaun T Rockin Body Mark, Move and Groove and I'm really... enjoying it!! I do a 3 mile walk then I do 15 minutes of Shaun T. If I feel extra energetic, I go for 30 minutes of Shaun T! Either way, I try to get in roughly an hour workout in each day! That doesn't include the rest of the day's running around and other stuff I am doing!!

So have a safe, fun and healthy Memorial Day!

Monday, April 29, 2013

Monday weigh-in 4/29

It's that time again!

After a morning of some fluctuating water (feeling like a water tanker) I took my shower and did my weigh-in. Down another 1.4 lbs bringing my total GONE to almost 34 lbs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am happy I waited! :)   

Setting 10 lb goals each time is really helping to keep me on track! I only have to lose 10 pounds 3 more times and I'm out of the 200s!! That makes it a lot less overwhelming for me!!

Sunday, April 28, 2013

Banana "ice cream" recipe

We all know the weather is warmer now and I don't know about you but the Mister Softie truck keeps taunting me!
I was inspired to make myself a treat last night so I was looking online for a recipe and I found one!  1 word....
I used 5 frozen bananas, 6 TBSP of PB2 powder and 1/4 cup of chocolate chips in my recipe but here is the basic recipe for you to get your creative juices flowing
Here is my version....and boy was it scrumptious!!

Wednesday, April 24, 2013

Monday weigh-in

Hey there, I'm sorry I didn't check in on Monday.  I was so sick the past few days that I thought I was going to die!  I must have gotten hit with a stomach virus of some sort because as quick as it arrived, that's how quick it was gone!  Luckily it's out of here and I survived it!  Today I have so much to do but I'm still a few days ahead so I'm not worried.

I did my weigh in on Monday morning and managed to lose 1.2 lbs bringing my total lost to 32.4 GONE.

I am 1 lb away from being out of the 240s!!  I'm so happy that I am just that much closer!

I know I have a long way to go still but I don't look at the big picture.  The way I look at it that makes it easier for me to digest is I break it down for myself this way.  I do 10 pound increments!  So broken down I've only lost 10 lbs three times!  I have ten more pounds to lose 8 or 9 times and that I can handle!  Sometimes our brains get way too overwhelmed with the big picture.  If that happens, break it down to even 5 lb increments.  If that seems a bit too overwhelming, do 1 pound at a time.  Let's face it we didn't go to bed last night at our ideal weight and wake up this morning 120 or more pounds overweight!  We didn't gain it overnight and we certainly aren't going to lose it that way either!  Some people expect such immediate results that if they don't lose what they think they should quick enough, they quit and that's when they fail themselves.  Or they lose big numbers in the first few weeks then they're on week 4 and weigh in and find that they lost 1 or 2 lbs and they get discouraged because they aren't losing at the same rate and they quit AGAIN failing themselves.

Moral of the story, DON'T quit!!  The only time you fail is when you quit!

You're worth not quitting on!

Monday, April 15, 2013

Monday weigh-in and Cardiologist visit today

Did my weigh in this morning and lost .2 which brings my total lost to 31.2 lbs!!  WOOHOOO

Just got back home from the cardiologist and he said everything is GREAT!!

He actually told me I didn't need a few of my daily supplements. He recommended that I discontinue taking the Omega-3, Calcium and Vitamin's C & E. He even felt I could stop taking the daily Prilosec!! He did recommend that I continue my daily low dose baby aspirin, garlic and my daily multi vitamin and to start taki
ng Vitamin D. He was very happy with my weight loss and advised that I continue to do what I'm doing!! I was advised to keep up my walking!! I go back to see him in 6 months!

I learned something very interesting today....when you lose 1 lb, your knees actually feel like they have lost roughly 8 lbs! He told me that my 31 lb weight loss feels like I lost 250 lbs as far as my knees are concerned! That made me feel AWESOME!!

I ran right over to the pharmacy and bought the Vitamin and restocked my garlic tabs!

I'm on the road to good health inside and out, mind body and soul!!! ♥

Monday, April 8, 2013

Weekly weigh-in!

Down another 2.4 lbs which brings my total lost to
31 lbs since January 7th and I feel awesome!

Monday, April 1, 2013

Monday Weigh-In

Time to shout out or reach out!
This is the first time I have gained since starting my journey on January 7th this year!  It's just a number and it's fuel to work a bit harder this week!  :)
I refuse to let it get me down or discourage me from shaking it off and keep moving forward.
So on through the tundra I go!

Monday, March 25, 2013

Monday weihg-in!

Just did my weigh-in and I lost 3.2 lbs this week bringing my total lost to 30.6 lbs!!!!
I've lost 6 of these!!!

Sunday, March 24, 2013

Did something that I have NEVER done before!

When I do crafts I get a serious case of the munchies!!  I have been known to wipe an entire kitchen out of it's snack stock HAHA!!

April is Autism Awareness Month and since my boys were diagnosed at 4, I always try to do something to show support and awareness for my guys!  Yesterday I decided to try my hands at an Autism Awareness Ribbon Wreath!  It came out GORGEOUS and for the first time EVER, I ate not a single solitary piece of food while making it...which I am most proud of!

Wednesday, March 20, 2013

Happy 1st Day Of Spring!!

Happy 1st Day Of Spring my Friends!!!!  Ok so about 1/4 of the year is gone already.  How are you doing with your weight loss/eating healthy journey??  Take some time today to sit, relax with a cup of coffee or tea and just reflect on all the good that has been going on in your life.  You'd be surprised how much good there really is in your life if you just make the effort to look for it!!

welcome spring.gif 

I hope the weather is glorious and the sun shines bright in your life today.

ladybug butterfly

So far it's been a very good year....NOT GREAT but very good none the less!!

Boys are honor students and are still maintaining their PERFECT attendance.  I am SO PROUD of my guys for making it to Spring Break with ZERO absences!!  :D  If the sun is blinding you today please know that it's just PITA shining down because he is so proud of his guys!!


We are working our rough patches out as a family TOGETHER.  The angry outbursts were completely out of control and it's no one's fault but MINE!!  My kids are 8 years old and if I'm modeling it, they are repeating it.  I take 100% full responsibility for THEIR behaviors.  SO....We have our pencil posted and we are taking baby steps toward being united as 1 once again.  Being devided wasn't working for us!!  Every relationship needs a hero....I may as well step up and be it for MY kids!!  Those boys are FAR too important to me to pass them off to the streets!!  I want my loving happy go lucky little boys (espically Michael) back!  We had a better week last week and I hope we have an even better on this week!!  Fingers crossed

fingers crossed

I am in the process of planning our summer vacation.  It will be either a 4 day or a 1 week get away with just me and my boys.  I'm hoping I can swing the whole week!!

at the beach on vacation

I may be starting a new job that would be PERFECT for my MOM schedule as early as May!!!


I've lost 27.4 lbs since January 7th and I am feeling AMAZINGLY healthy for the first time in SO LONG.  I finally feel like I'm getting my groove back!  My internal numbers are good and it's showing.  Everyone can see the differences in me and even I can spot it here and there!  :D


I am loving my "Good Things" Jar.  It really does help me keep focus of all the positive in life no matter how small it may be!!  I think we need a new jar soon...LOL

Monday, March 18, 2013

Saturday, March 16, 2013

How is your internal health?

Have you had a complete physical recently and if so do you know your BMI, blood pressure, sugar and cholesterol numbers?

If you are a female, have you had your yearly GYN exam and Mammogram (40 y/o+)

I think one of the best ways to feel really good about yourself even if the scale crept up a bit is to know that everything inside is good.   Sometimes just knowing that if something comes back abnormal or out of range, it can be treated is good too.  Knowledge is power!

Get your numbers checked and know them!  Make yourself feel GREAT from the inside out!!  Get the power with the knowledge that you are taking care of ALL OF YOU!!!!

Monday, March 11, 2013

Weekly weigh-in

Down another 1.6 lbs. which brings my total lost to 25.6 lbs!!


Did you weigh-in this week??  Good or bad, post it here and hold yourself accountable!

Sunday, March 10, 2013

The importance of eating breakfast

Do you eat breakfast everyday??  I hope you do!  Our Mom's were 100% right on this one, it really is the most important meal of the day!  There are so many health benefits to eating a balanced breakfast each day.
For breakfast today I had a Dannon Light & Fit Peach Yogurt, a serving of Fiber One 80 Chocolate Cereal, a banana and coffee.
What did you have for breakfast today?
Here are some links to inspire you to eat breakfast everyday....

Saturday, March 9, 2013

New Product Review

Anyone ever heard of PB2???
Well a friend recommended it to me and I ordered it to give it a try.  Now IMHO it DOES NOT taste exactly like peanut butter but it was very good none the less.
For breakfast I slathered it on my whole grain English muffin with sliced bananas and it was super yummy this morning!
I think I am going to try the chocolate tomorrow!!
For anyone that may be interested in giving this product a try, here is a link to a good deal from Amazon

Wednesday, March 6, 2013

Scale hopping!

This is the one thing I miss about going to Weight Watchers meetings.  When I was attending meetings, I didn't have a scale....didn't even OWN one!  Now that I use the mobile app, I have to have a scale but now my problem is, I am forever hopping on it to "check" my weight.  It's more like TORTURE myself with the number!!  HAHA

The flip side to the torture is I know about fluid fluctuations and shifts as well as it keeps me on track!

I guess it's all in the way you look at it.

Are you a scale hopper??  Is it torture or does it keep you on track??

Monday, March 4, 2013

Monday weigh-in!

Ok so it's unofficially, officially, unofficially, OFFICIAL that I gained this past week! Got on and off the scale 5 times in 5 minutes and each time I did that, I got a different read out LMFAO!! Gotta love momentary water flux's!!! I just laugh when that happens. So I'm going with the .02 lb gain! I don't see this as a setback at all but rather ammunition to work a bit harder this week. So I say OFFICIALLY I'm holding steady at 24 lbs GONE!!!!

My pants are still are TOO BIG!! I tried on two size 18 dresses and they both fit. They're snug but at least they fit and they are not so tight that I can't breath!! I still feel awesome and I'm moving forward!!!!!!!
There is no....
And remember that....

Sunday, March 3, 2013

Happy Sunday....

Boy am I SORE!!! My legs are killing me today. I walked over 7 3/4 miles yesterday total clocking in a little more then an hour of aerobic walking. Today I am going to take some Advil, do the laundry and give my body a rest!!

I'm 45 and sometimes I really hate getting old!! One of the reasons besides weight loss that I get daily activity in is "a body in motion stays in motion!" I do not w...
ant to be the fat, frumpy, and 50 year old that can't get off the couch because everything hurts so bad I can barely breath! I want to stay active and agile even into my 80's!!!! No matter how much we desire to move like we're in our 20's, our body is constantly reminding us of our age! I wasn't even this sore 10 years ago at 35 when I was walking approx. 10 miles per day!

I think I am starting to come down with something. Woke up yesterday and today feeling that "you're getting sick" tickle in the back of my throat. It went away yesterday and that's what I'm hoping for today!
This will definitely be me today....

 What are your plans today?

Saturday, March 2, 2013

Before and After Pics Thus Far

9 weeks in...24.2 lbs GONE!
Front view

Side view

Weight Watchers!!  Because it works!!

Saturday, February 23, 2013

Happy National Banana Bread Day today

Hey there everyone, how is your Saturday going so far?   Today is National Banana Bread Day and This is how I celebrated.   I made these Nutella Monkey Muffins for the kids!  They just came out of the oven now and the house smells scrumptious...!

They taste even yummier. Only thing I did differently was I put 1 cup of regular flour and 1 cup of whole wheat flour (for the added nutritional value), I also didn't put the choc chips in and added about 1/2 more Nutella, they're really yummy!!  AND I baked them in regular muffin tins instead of the mini size mostly for the boys to have another healthy breakfast option in the morning.   The recipe made about 32 muffins and  best part is they are 4 WWPP each in case I want to treat myself!
Check out the recipe...

Friday, February 22, 2013

Stop comparing yourself to others

Everyone travels down different roads in their daily life so why would losing weight be any different?
Same destination but different path for EVERYONE!!

So many different factors play a role in how we travel that road.  Age, sex, height, hormones, activity level, the foods we eat, etc. etc. etc.!!
There is NEVER a reason to say, "We started together so why haven't I lost as much as her/him?"  They are biologically different then you so don't sweat it...or should I say....
Trust me, it will come off!!

Monday, February 18, 2013

Before and After...

This was taken January 7th.....

This was taken Feb 16th.....

Weekly weigh-in time!

I had my weigh-in this morning and am down another 4.6 lbs which brings my total lost to 23.2!

How did you do?  Post it here and hold yourself accountable.

Sunday, February 17, 2013

Pizza, Pizza!!

Spinach, chicken and sliced tomato pizza!!
Just one word

Saturday, February 16, 2013

How do you stay active?

Do you stay active?  If you are trying to lose weight you should.  I'm not exactly sure what your personal fitness level should be for weight loss but ANY activity is better then none!

Do you walk, go to the gym, do an exercise DVD, play the Wii fit or Xbox??

Did you know that staying active isn't just for weight loss?  It's been known to have other health benefits.

It really is true that a body in motion stays in motion!  My FIL is a very healthy 86 years old and goes to the gym 3 days per week to help keep himself active.  He's been going to a gym for over 25 years and he has no plans on slowing down his activity levels!!   He is such an inspiration to me!!

Try getting at least 30 minutes of activity per day to keep yourself happy and healthy!!  "I wish I'd never worked out because I feel terrible" said no one after a workout!!

Monday, February 11, 2013

Weigh-in Monday

Got woken up by two 8 year old sleep intruders at 3:30 this morning and once I dealt with them, I couldn't go back to sleep until I weighed myself. I lost .4 which brings my total lost to 18.6 and I'm A VERY HAPPY CAMPER. I refuse to say, "I ONLY lost ...." I take whatever the scale gives me. It's just feedback and accountability!!! Did you weigh in today? If so share your success or struggles here!

You are what you eat!

Sunday, February 10, 2013

Busy week ahead!

I have tons of energy today so I made good use of it.  I'm spending my day cleaning our bedrooms!  First I did the boys bedroom then I did mine.  I did laundry and collected trash in between.  Still not completely done but I'm getting there!  It feels so good to FINALLY have a clean and fresh house.  For years I lived with a hoarder and I would get so frustrated because he never saw how important a clean house was to me and the boys.  Sadly I had to wait until after he passed away for me to have the house the way I wanted!  I took good care of him and before he left this world, I started cleaning it out slowly but surely.  Today, 2 years later, I am finally rid of ALL THE JUNK!!  I kept only necessary pieces and the rest was filed under T for TRASH!!

I really love getting my life back and feeling really good about me, my kids, my home, my entire life!!  I haven't felt really good in a long time and frankly it's well deserved!!  I always go out of my way to make others feel good, it's MY TURN NOW!!

This week I have a busy schedule!!  Monday I have to go get my picture for my ID and do some food shopping.  Tuesday I have a school trip, I'm going with the boys classrooms and I'm very excited!!!  Wednesday I have cupcakes to make for valentines day AND a dr apt for me.  Thursday I have to deliver the cupcakes AND valentine taffy's to the kids at school and go to the boys report card conferences!  Friday is my only day to myself this week.  I think tomorrow I will call and try to schedule my physical for Friday.

What do you have planned this week??  Facing any challenges??  Do you prep foods?  Here is a nice chart that can help if you don't.

Saturday, February 9, 2013

15 months.....

Woke up this morning and realized that today marks 15 months since you went home! I simply can't believe it's been that long. I miss you more and more every single day. Life certainly has changed since GOD sent his angels to take you home. Some for the worst but certainly most for the better! Still having a difficult time with accepting my life without you in it but each day gives me a new opportunity to learn just how good life can be and it gives me hope that there is a rainbow waiting for me somewhere! I'd give anything to have you back even if it were for a moment just to tell you how much I love you. Just one more chance to hear another one of your many lectures. I need your reassurance that I'm doing the right things.

Thinking of you and feeling you in my heart Charles J Voegtle today! 831 ♥

Thursday, February 7, 2013

Only 1 Pound!

It always amazed when I would go to Weight Watchers meetings and I'd hear people say "I ONLY LOST 1 POUND??? " as if they expected more weight lost each week!   These are the same people that would say to me, "You lost 1 pound??  AWESOME JOB!!"  I always wondered why they had such high weight loss expectations for themselves but 1 lb lost each week was an AWESOME JOB for me!!  I took whatever the scale told me, good or bad.  It wasn't my sole reason for going to the meetings.  It was simply feedback, JUST A NUMBER!!  It didn't give an inkling about all the other benefits of eating healthy was doing for my body!

When I see any loss on the scale, I am instantly reminded of what my WW Leader, Anthony, used to tell me.  If I lost 1 lb that week, he'd say, "You're 1 pound lighter then when you walked in the door!"  And you know what, he was right.  I walked into every single meeting armed with only the knowledge of what I weighed the previous week...not what the scale told me I really was that night!  I always felt good after a weigh in.  Now if I went up 1 lb he'd say, "You ONLY gained a pound.  Could have been worse, right?"  Again, he was right!!

Try to visualize what 1 lb of fat looks like and

So when you say I ONLY lost 1 lb...remember this picture

This is what your body lost.
Now visualize what your body will look like after losing 20 of these!

Wednesday, February 6, 2013

Inspiration for today

I really LOVE this mans story!!!  He is so inspiring.  If you think you want to give this video and you will feel differently....

If he can do it....we can too!

Don't give up....

<3 to you all!

Monday, February 4, 2013

Monday weigh-in!

I got up at 6:15 to take the trash out and I figured while I was awake, I'd weigh myself since today is Monday. I am down another 4 lbs which brings my total lost to 18.2 pounds lost.

I am excited!!!

Sunday, February 3, 2013

Non-scale benefits of Living Clean!

Hey everyone, I'm having some water while relaxing after a good workout lugging ALL the heavy trash out of my basement upstairs to get ready for collection tomorrow morning!  As I'm sitting here I'm thinking about all the non-scale benefits I have been experiencing of my weight loss journey so far.

#1  I sleep better.  I was waking up quite frequently in the middle of the night for several reasons from being extremely thirsty, suffering with the MOST HORRIBLE heartburn, or simply out of breath and everything in between.  Sometimes ALL in the same night too!!  I woke up with minor heartburn 1 night since Jan 7th and that was because we had a late dinner and I had a slice of pizza. 

#2  My energy level is almost tripled.  I used to drag my butt everywhere I had to go even if it was from the living room to the kitchen to grab more junk!  I find myself wanting to take walks after cleaning up from dinner.  Even my sons sometimes join me!!  They are AWESOME!!

#3  I DO NOT drink anymore soda!!!  My beverage of choice was always Diet Pepsi because it was always the healthier option right??  WRONG!!!!  Soda is BAD, ALL SODA even the diet crap!!!!!!

#4  I hydrate with water now.  I got FAR away from drinking it and now I am back to drinking 4 to 6 33 ounce bottles per day!  I LOVE MY aqua!!

#5  I am eating more veggies.  Sadly another thing I got far away from.  I am now rediscovering all the yummy tasting veggies I loved to eat but forgotten how good they were because I wasn't cooking them!

#6  I always have fresh fruit within reach!  I was a terrible snacker.  I would snack on all the wrong stuff never worrying about healthy or not!  Candy, chips, cake...everything!  My go to snack now is fresh fruit!  I eat a banana with my breakfast every morning.  I eat about 2 to 3 apples and oranges per day.  I'm so looking forward to means CHERRIES!!!!

#7  I really pay attention to portion sizes now.  If anyone suffered terribly with portion distortion, it would be me!!  I always thought that whatever the restaurants put on the plate was the right portion so you just ate it!!  You went to the restaurant to EAT right???  So why take any home??  I mean you were paying for the meal to be served to you, just eat it!!  Again WRONG!!!  Most if not all of the restaurants today serve far more on your plate then they should.  Fast food restaurants ask if you want everything super sized.  When they should be asking if you would like the small??  Turn on the TV and we are bombarded with HUGE portions of everything.  We live in a world that shoves big portions down our throats AS WELL AS makes us believe that those big portions are good for us.  Learning proper portions of everything can be quite interesting.  Read the labels and suddenly we find out just how much damage we're actually doing to ourselves.  I'm sticking within proper portions and I really bump up the veggies now to make up for the difference.  Let's face it there isn't a one of us that got fat on too many celery sticks so go BIG with your veggies and go small with everything else!

#8  My activity level has tremendously increased!  I was almost sedentary all the time.  I hate the word exercise PERIOD THE END.  I slip and use it every now and again but I honestly don't like using the word.  For me it's in the same category with the word diet.  Activity sounds so much more of a healthy term for me!!  I know, I know, technicalities but there are HONESTLY people that hate the word and I happen to be one of them.  I much prefer being active!  So I find ways to get more activity in.  I am extremely active now even if it's the slightest task....I push it to the max.  I can put on the music and dance while I clean.  I do walk at home DVDs and I love them.  When I have to run errands, I walk.  I LOVE walking!!  I am constantly on the move now and my body is all the better for it!!!!

These are just some of the non-scale benefits I have experienced.  I'm so looking forward to more as I get healthier!

MY journey, MY terms!

Happy Sunday

Hey everyone and happy Sunday!! I hope you had a wonderful week and are looking forward to an even better week ahead! I have been staying OP and drinking plenty of water. Getting exercise in though can sometimes be a bit challenging for me. I'm a single widowed Mother of ADHD/Autistic 8 year old twin 2nd grade sons living on a fixed income and I simply can't afford a gym membership. Gym's jus...t aren't for me anyway so I won't commit to something I am not going to do anyway.

I always have SO MUCH to do during the day, I volunteer at the boys school which I LOVE to do, or I have tons of errands to run! So because getting exercise can be difficult for me when I have to do a lot of cleaning I try to move fast and deliberately draw my tasks out so I feel like I am getting a REAL WORKOUT! When I'm at school, I am ALWAYS moving around the building helping out the teachers. When I have to run errands, I walk and I try to walk as fast as I can so again, I feel like I'm getting a good workout in!! Some days I find that I do all 3 and I pray it pays off come weigh-in day!! LOL

Today I have the laundry to do and a ton of trash that has to be removed from my basement. I'm bringing it up little by little as the day goes on! I have to get up around 6ish tomorrow morning to put it out curbside to be collected. I spent a good hour and got the lunch stuff portioned out for the boys. They ONLY at ham roll ups for lunch so that had to be broken down in appropriate portion sizes for them. Then I bought a huge box of Pepp Farms goldfish and a container of Pringles chips and I portioned all that out for them.

I heard on Pinerest that you can make homemade McDonalds apple slices by soaking your apple slices overnight in Sprite so I sliced 4 green apples and they are soaking away! I hope it works because I'm gonna feel like I wasted 4 perfectly good apples and I HATE WASTING FOOD!!! It's so hard to get healthy foods into my kids and my son Michael LOVES McDonalds apple slices but I refuse to pay the price the supermarkets want for them. My son CJ eats bunny carrots with his lunch each day!

This week my project is cleaning out the boys playroom. If you don't hear from me by Wednesday, PLEASE alert the authorities in Philadelphia to send the search and rescue team!! HAHAHAHA

Hope everyone has a SUPER DUPER Super Bowl Sunday!!

Saturday, February 2, 2013

Walking together

I am so proud of my kids!!! I decided to take a walk after dinner tonight and they came with me. We walked 1.41 miles total and we had a great walk TOGETHER!!!

My son Michael said to me, "Mommy we should do this every night, I will help you get healthy!!"

My baby boy is the GREATEST!!

Egg Cupcake Omelets

Tonight I made 1WWPP egg white, ham, cheese, and spinach cupcakes.

1WWPP Breakfast Egg Cupcake Omelets

Preheat oven to 350. Use cooking spray to spray 19 or 20 cupcake spaces in your pan.
24 egg whites
8 oz diced ham
1 cup Mexican mix cheese blend
1 1/2 cups steamed spinach

mix eggs, ham and cheese to blend well. Add 1/4 cup of mix to 19 sprayed cupcake spaces. Divide your spinach among each. Bake 15-20 minutes in a 350 degree preheated oven.

Each is 1WWPP and would make a great filling for a toasted whole grain English muffin or 3WWPPs for 2 by themselves as a light lunch.

Thursday, January 31, 2013

My thoughts

I hate when I have nights like this.  My mind never seems to just shut down and stop the insane thoughts!  I start thinking of my life and they are all questions that weigh VERY heavy on my mind.

How can I continue being a single widowed mother of ADHD/Autistic twin sons?

What will tomorrow bring for us?

Do I really think I can raise these boys all by myself?

Will I really be able to get all this weight off?

Why does all this seem so impossible for me?

Can I continue living my life alone?

How will I keep all the bills paid if something bad happens?

So many questions and no answers which is very frustrating!

I need to learn how to to shut off and block the negative thoughts and turn them around into positive thoughts!

One Day (One Thought) At A Time!

Monday, January 28, 2013

Monday Weigh-In...

Morning my friends!! I just did my weigh-in and I am down another 2.6 lbs bringing my total lost to 14.2 lbs!


Slow and steady wins the race! ♥

Did you weigh in today?  If so share your success or struggle here and hold yourself accountable.

Sunday, January 27, 2013

Hello and Welcome Part 2

I was contemplating the ultimate disaster! I sought help as quickly as I could because I hated the way I was feeling toward the boys, my husband and myself. Medication after medication tried and no luck! I was in deep talk therapy on a bi-weekly basis and it helped a little but not enough. Then I started seeing a psychiatrist on a monthly basis because that was all I could afford after all the financial changes we went through settled. I was OK but still FAR FROM 100%. Medications still were not working and I cried all the time!!

When the boys first started Pre-K. Talk about being a nervous Nelly!! I was terrified of that. I knew they had a few issues and the biggest one was not being potty trained. Then they started acting up in school and a counselor suggested getting them tested for ADHD. I had them tested and when the Dr said "Have you ever had them tested for Autism?" I was highly offended!! I thought "My boys are not stupid! How dare you!!" Again my depression was in over drive. I went home and felt so helpless. I finally caved and had them tested for Autism and when they told me that they were in fact Autistic, I was CRUSHED. In deep denial, angry, sad, trapped, stuck, helpless, depressed, terrified....and every other emotion that was humanly possible. I was angry at the boys, my husband, GOD, the world, myself!!!

Eating was the one and only thing I could do and not feel any emotions about. I could shovel the food in and it made me feel better! It felt wonderful to have one thing in my life that made me feel so good....I never thought about what it was doing to me physically.

Right after the boys diagnosis came my husband's illness. Again depression but this time I kinda sorta tried to bounce back quickly. I figured of anyone was going to be sick, might as well not be me!! I had to stay healthy and alive to take care of the boys and hubby. I started WW again and managed to knock off 75 lbs while the boys were in Kindergarten. I had no idea just how short lived that would become for me. Sadly after having a kidney removed and returning to work and living life as normally as we were, my husband still got really bad and ended up becoming completely dependant on me!! Back off the wagon I fell right off the wagon. I got so consumed with taking care of everyone that I completely forgot about myself.

Pounds came on faster than I thought possible and I felt trapped in my own self destructive death by eating suicide!!

After my hubby's death in November 2011 I tried going back to WW and lost a total of 5.....maybe 7lbs before throwing in the towel so quick that it felt so out of my reach and not possible at all!!

So here I am 14 months after his death and I am over 120+lbs over weight. I am morbidly obese and I need to make quick changes in order to have a chance to see my boys graduate from high school & college, get married and meet my grand kids. Every single ache and pain and all the agony of being overweight is a sign that NOW IS THE TIME!!! It's DO OR DIE!!!

No one or nothing is gonna stop me!!

I started Weight Watchers AGAIN on Jan 7, 2013 and I have done fairly well for my first week in and am excited to see what my weigh-in on Sunday reveals! Good or bad, I am not letting it derail me this time....I am on track and I am stronger than ever this time. I am choosing to live healthy for life!!

Thanks for reading! HUGS

This is me 1 week after I REstarted my journey 1~13~13

This is me on 1~26~13
It's been over 2 years since I was able to even zip this coat let alone wear it!!  It felt AWESOME!!